Below are the 19 most recent journal entries recorded in johnny_siu's LiveJournal:

Monday, November 7th, 2005
12:15 am	ok havent posted n how long w/e so yea, im 18 now, had a good birthday week and what not im a bit depressed and all, w/e thats no big deal i kinda gave up on somethign i thought was real, mebbe it is....well ok i know it is, i jsut havent felt it ever, itl come.....w/e im just hinking aloud and what not but why i really post thank you to everyone ive talked to in the last week-ish and all....yea idk, im just rambling but im happy, alone, but i guess im happy Current Mood: apathetic Current Music: fall out boy, pros and cons of breathing (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 20th, 2005
12:06 am	stoopid things How you really say "I love you." by lenatheraven Name ...believe in true love? yesnoI wish I didI wish I didn'tmost definitelynot until someone proved it to me Your hands say We fit together. Your eyes say I can't dream anyone more beautiful. Your hugs say This is where you are meant to be. Your kisses say You mean the world to me. Your body says Just curl up next to me. Your heart says Je t'aime. Quiz created with MemeGen! Current Mood: lonely to the max Current Music: fall out boy 7 min in heaven (Comment on this)
Monday, September 26th, 2005
11:58 pm	i dunno im really quite upset right now, i dont knwo exactly why i feel really alone i have that same thought over and over...same scenario...some ppl know what i mean, i dont think it will ever happen thers something missing something is not right im really not ok i dont know why im writing here i think im going to start writing in a journal again....but not this, something no one else will see..... this may be the last post for quite some time im really confused i think i need help BYE :/ Current Mood: alone Current Music: punk rock princess - something corporate (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 25th, 2005
8:21 pm	yesterday yesterday was a good day...kinda ditched work...got caught u_u am now in trouble saw corps bride, was good went bowling, was fun just hung out, good time realizied that i was right....not so good, but w/e well i dunno how much trouble im in, but m concerned, and i need to d things differently, but whatevers haha thats all Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: all these things that ive done - kilers (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
6:15 pm	o well i was crazy off last night...i just wasnt me, idk there was somethign bothering me that i just couldnt realize, sorry to anyone that may read this if i talked to you and said stuff, because if it was like after 10.....i was really really not me hahaha u_u well w/e im good now ^_^ THATS ALL ByEzOrS Current Mood: better ^_^ Current Music: cable car - the fray (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 12th, 2005
10:40 pm	repeat do ya ever get the same thought running thru your head over and over and over and over....yea, isnt it FUN haha it doesnt help that its notthe happiest thought, o wells, i guess i should do some homework.....hope everyone is haveing fun on retreat, haha yay well BYE Current Mood: depressed Current Music: smile like you mean it - killers (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 1st, 2005
2:12 am	i wish i wish i could sleep....im very tired sleep wont come, i cant stop thinking...i watched a movie, princess mononoke, it was very very good. i wish things were different in my life, maybe ill change them now. ive had too much time to think tonight. ive realizied some things, acknowledged mistakes ive made. hopefully i can fix things, but if i cant, i hope everything works out well for her there is definately something missing in my life, i thougth i knew what that was, i was wrong.... i want to go to sleep so badly, maybe ill try again BYE Current Mood: lonely Current Music: wonderful silence (its not a song....but its quiet ^_^) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 30th, 2005
10:24 pm	so i lied ok it wasnt the final post, i dont want to post but i just like wanna scream...so i post? w/e im really really unhappy...and the only person that always makes me happy....is the one making me unhappy, so what do i do now???? i just want to go away....really far away, where i dont knwo anyone, and no one there even knows of anyone i know now..... BYE Current Mood: miserable u_u Current Music: talk to me dance with me - hot hot heat (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 16th, 2005
12:32 am	final post yea im done with this again....idk why i started but o well so this is my last entry, i dotn think im gonna delete it tho...maybe ill come back to it eventually (doubtful) but w/e so turns out i was right about somthing for once.....but i wish i wasnt, i didnt think it owuld hurt so much to be lied to, but it does, and sice this is the last entry i can be an ass and not mention anyhitng else....im just not doin to great right now BYE Current Mood: really really hurt Current Music: this broken heart - something corporate (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 13th, 2005
3:03 am	me hey to all, if you ever hear me complaining about just about anythign point it out to me, i realizied taht i complain ALOT and i really shouldnt, everythign that i knwo i complain about isnt really that bad or hard to deal with. so yea, life aint so bad, also i realy wanna see the movie broken flowers...k so thats a bit random but its looks good haha well BYE Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: beverly hills - weezer (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 11th, 2005
12:07 am	dun ok so im dun with the translator thing i guess, im jsut too lazy, normal entries it is i guess i hate beign in no mans land, i need something to change, even if its a bad change hey im unhappy could ya guess :P BYE Current Mood: is fuck-tastic a word? Current Music: girl- back (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 8th, 2005
12:00 am	omg another normal entry ?????? well my mom is back home u_u but on the upside some good things happened today....i saw wedding crashers....very funny and well even more importantly...well more mimportant to me, i talked to someone who i hadent talked to in a loong time, and well am really glad for that, it was a pleasant suprise ^_^ well thats all...nothing creative, but just you wait...it will come haha BYE Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: stockings-suzanne vega (Comment on this)
Friday, August 5th, 2005
7:26 pm	look its a normal entry ok so this entry is normal...because im lazy, and its gonna be short. i havent been home/with family much since sunday...only slept at home once and ummm im really tired. other than that nothing much has been going on, tyler is back, ummm thats about it, o i saw batman again, and it was good...again and ummm idk im gonna go take a nap and dodge cutting the grass....again, and then well work tomorrow at 7 am...and well blehhhhhhh maybe ill post somthing creative next time, instead of just pointless rambling....? o well either way buh byes Current Mood: pessimistic Current Music: none-zors (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, July 29th, 2005
10:50 pm	past few days all right so much last days ive being miserable but anywho, I went to the Nebraska that sees creghton, went with the cousin mom and the aunt had globally a good time, mom and I didnt takes at length but... saw ryan macassy w/e and the Mike massheart in kno omahaw... wierd I, it was in some travel of services or mission thingy, which was cool umm idk im really tired adn work I in morning 4:30 tomorrow yikes, thus idk bleh insufficient readjustment tomorrow GOODBYE Current Mood: crappy Current Music: i kissed a drunk girs - something corporate (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
8:33 pm	kinda bleh.... the ok was a good day so much today, but this evening isnt by good night today I was with still GOES, I really liked him and AM hoping with the voulenteer there for the remainder of the summer, and perhaps during the school too is but this lame evening, of the theres nothing to make, good I guess I prolly could make somthing, but the theres only I want to make, I wish almost that I work. I do not know, I were earlier happier today, but not maintaining the u_u im but the good things of O change, spout out if all is well I will manage to make the monica somthing wiht, and if not, well which sucks, but I do not know yet in this a little unhappy moment im Juste and the meh thus this entry is as the lame one that I know, perhaps thereafter I will be written with substance in here this isnt just complaining, good until then with the bye Current Mood: depressed Current Music: dead on arrival - fall out boy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 26th, 2005
9:53 pm	wierded out the authorization, so finishes having same a conversation of wierd, was on PROM. and thats like eight months of absentee, but basically somebody finishes asking to me if it requested them that to the PROM when it rolls around if I do not have a date or a fiancèe or somthing. and anybody was not definately that that i thought whenever it would happen to the affluent GOOD BYE of Haha Current Mood: confused Current Music: good news - somthing corporate (1 Comment |Comment on this)
3:41 pm	today this way i worked/voulenteered/observed at VA today. I went to the physical therapy afd. and was cold. I was already geinteresseerd in that and I did not keep up of real this way im bright to return... this way tomorrow aroused concerning standing up 8 but w/e ummm I know dont what differently to predict this way im thinly to ziens-Zors now Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Fall - Somthing Corporate (Comment on this)
3:11 am	am not old! and intestinal difficulty! (Comment on this)
2:08 am	new journal yay.....? or somthing along those lines, its a new journal. it will be full of typos and stuff that i choose to type. i dont relly want a new journal, but noah made me so there....BYE p.s. there will be a theme to all of my posts....other than this one, see if you can figure it out (if you can, congradulations, ur not a retard) Current Mood: meh im me Current Music: NONE-ZORS (Comment on this)