yay its a journal...again, which i will use...again

ok havent posted n how long w/e

2005-11-07T06:17:59Z

so yea, im 18 now, had a good birthday week and what not

im a bit depressed and all, w/e thats no big deal

i kinda gave up on somethign i thought was real, mebbe it is....well ok i know it is, i jsut havent felt it ever, itl come.....w/e im just hinking aloud and what not

but why i really post

thank you to everyone ive talked to in the last week-ish and all....yea idk, im just rambling

but im happy, alone, but i guess im happy

stoopid things

2005-10-20T05:07:26Z

How you really say "I love you." by lenatheraven
Name
...believe in true love?
Your hands say	We fit together.
Your eyes say	I can't dream anyone more beautiful.
Your hugs say	This is where you are meant to be.
Your kisses say	You mean the world to me.
Your body says	Just curl up next to me.
Your heart says	Je t'aime.

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i dunno

2005-09-27T05:01:14Z

im really quite upset right now, i dont knwo exactly why

i feel really alone

i have that same thought over and over...same scenario...some ppl know what i mean, i dont think it will ever happen

thers something missing

something is not right

im really not ok

i dont know why im writing here

i think im going to start writing in a journal again....but not this, something no one else will see.....

this may be the last post for quite some time

im really confused

i think i need help

BYE

:/

yesterday

2005-09-26T01:24:03Z

yesterday was a good day...kinda

ditched work...got caught u_u am now in trouble

saw corps bride, was good

went bowling, was fun

just hung out, good time

realizied that i was right....not so good, but w/e

well i dunno how much trouble im in, but m concerned, and i need to d things differently, but whatevers

haha

thats all

o well

2005-09-20T23:17:01Z

i was crazy off last night...i just wasnt me, idk there was somethign bothering me that i just couldnt realize, sorry to anyone that may read this if i talked to you and said stuff, because if it was like after 10.....i was really really not me hahaha u_u well w/e im good now ^_^

THATS ALL

ByEzOrS

repeat

2005-09-13T03:42:36Z

do ya ever get the same thought running thru your head over and over and over and over....yea, isnt it FUN haha it doesnt help that its notthe happiest thought, o wells, i guess i should do some homework.....hope everyone is haveing fun on retreat, haha yay well BYE

i wish

2005-09-01T07:16:03Z

i wish i could sleep....im very tired

sleep wont come, i cant stop thinking...i watched a movie, princess mononoke, it was very very good.

i wish things were different in my life, maybe ill change them now. ive had too much time to think tonight.

ive realizied some things, acknowledged mistakes ive made. hopefully i can fix things, but if i cant, i hope everything works out well for her

there is definately something missing in my life, i thougth i knew what that was, i was wrong....

i want to go to sleep so badly, maybe ill try again

BYE

so i lied

2005-08-31T03:27:14Z

ok it wasnt the final post, i dont want to post but i just like wanna scream...so i post? w/e

im really really unhappy...and the only person that always makes me happy....is the one making me unhappy, so what do i do now???? i just want to go away....really far away, where i dont knwo anyone, and no one there even knows of anyone i know now..... BYE

final post

2005-08-16T05:35:18Z

yea im done with this again....idk why i started but o well so this is my last entry, i dotn think im gonna delete it tho...maybe ill come back to it eventually (doubtful) but w/e

so turns out i was right about somthing for once.....but i wish i wasnt, i didnt think it owuld hurt so much to be lied to, but it does, and sice this is the last entry i can be an ass and not mention anyhitng else....im just not doin to great right now

BYE

me

2005-08-13T08:05:30Z

hey to all, if you ever hear me complaining about just about anythign point it out to me, i realizied taht i complain ALOT and i really shouldnt, everythign that i knwo i complain about isnt really that bad or hard to deal with. so yea, life aint so bad, also i realy wanna see the movie broken flowers...k so thats a bit random but its looks good
haha
well BYE

dun

2005-08-11T05:08:40Z

ok so im dun with the translator thing i guess, im jsut too lazy, normal entries it is i guess

i hate beign in no mans land, i need something to change, even if its a bad change

hey im unhappy could ya guess :P

BYE

omg another normal entry ??????

2005-08-08T05:03:13Z

well my mom is back home u_u but on the upside some good things happened today....i saw wedding crashers....very funny and well even more importantly...well more mimportant to me, i talked to someone who i hadent talked to in a loong time, and well am really glad for that, it was a pleasant suprise ^_^ well thats all...nothing creative, but just you wait...it will come haha BYE

look its a normal entry

2005-08-06T00:28:57Z

ok so this entry is normal...because im lazy, and its gonna be short. i havent been home/with family much since sunday...only slept at home once and ummm im really tired. other than that nothing much has been going on, tyler is back, ummm thats about it, o i saw batman again, and it was good...again and ummm idk im gonna go take a nap and dodge cutting the grass....again, and then well work tomorrow at 7 am...and well blehhhhhhh maybe ill post somthing creative next time, instead of just pointless rambling....? o well either way buh byes

past few days

2005-07-30T03:53:52Z

all right so much last days ive being miserable but anywho, I went to the Nebraska that sees creghton, went with the cousin mom and the aunt had globally a good time, mom and I didnt takes at length but... saw ryan macassy w/e and the Mike massheart in kno omahaw... wierd I, it was in some travel of services or mission thingy, which was cool umm idk im really tired adn work I in morning 4:30 tomorrow yikes, thus idk bleh insufficient readjustment tomorrow GOODBYE

kinda bleh....

2005-07-28T01:39:46Z

the ok was a good day so much today, but this evening isnt by good night today I was with still GOES, I really liked him and AM hoping with the voulenteer there for the remainder of the summer, and perhaps during the school too is but this lame evening, of the theres nothing to make, good I guess I prolly could make somthing, but the theres only I want to make, I wish almost that I work. I do not know, I were earlier happier today, but not maintaining the u_u im but the good things of O change, spout out if all is well I will manage to make the monica somthing wiht, and if not, well which sucks, but I do not know yet in this a little unhappy moment im Juste and the meh thus this entry is as the lame one that I know, perhaps thereafter I will be written with substance in here this isnt just complaining, good until then with the bye

wierded out

2005-07-27T02:57:17Z

the authorization, so finishes having same a conversation of wierd, was on PROM. and thats like eight months of absentee, but basically somebody finishes asking to me if it requested them that to the PROM when it rolls around if I do not have a date or a fiancèe or somthing. and anybody was not definately that that i thought whenever it would happen to the affluent GOOD BYE of Haha

today

2005-07-26T20:44:53Z

this way i worked/voulenteered/observed at VA today. I went to the physical therapy afd. and was cold. I was already geinteresseerd in that and I did not keep up of real this way im bright to return... this way tomorrow aroused concerning standing up 8 but w/e ummm I know dont what differently to predict this way im thinly to ziens-Zors now

johnny_siu @ 2005-07-26T03:11:00

2005-07-26T08:12:17Z

am not old! and intestinal difficulty!

new journal

2005-07-26T07:10:59Z

yay.....? or somthing along those lines, its a new journal. it will be full of typos and stuff that i choose to type. i dont relly want a new journal, but noah made me so there....BYE

p.s. there will be a theme to all of my posts....other than this one, see if you can figure it out (if you can, congradulations, ur not a retard)